Waiting and waiting.

Today, I'm making a giant, giant batch of chocolate chip cookies and watching Dogma by myself (I haven't seen it yet). If, by tomorrow night he still hasn't been bothered to speak to me on the matters that I've been pouring my heart out in agony about for months... I really am going to tell him that it's done, and I can't wait any longer.

Or god damnit I'm going to try. It still makes me pale to think about. I don't slash people out of my life ruthlessly. I just don't do it. I think, in a lot of cases, it's a pretty shitty thing to do and for the most part I do a good job of not associating myself with people who will cause me to do something like that in the first place. But I can't do this any more... and because I've done it for so long, I can't stay in his company at all. Not for a long time, anyway.

This is my recipe for cookies.

Ingredients:

1 Cup Butter
1 Egg
3/4 Cup Brown Sugar (packed)
3/4 Cup White Sugar
1 Tablespoon Vanilla
2 1/2 Cups Flour
1/2 Teaspoon Salt
1 Teaspoon Baking Soda
1 12oz bag chocolate chips (semisweet)

Preheat oven to 350

Let butter soften and allow egg to come to room temperature
Beat Butter, Egg, Brown and White sugar, and Vanilla, together in your bowl with an electric mixer a lot longer than you think you should. The mixture should be light in color and texture and fairly smooth and creamy when you're done (taste it, this is nearly the best part! It will still feel a little gritty from the sugar, but less than it did when you started).

Measure out your Flour, Salt and Baking Soda. Sift into the bowl in 2 or 3 batches, and beat in each batch of flour until very well mixed.

Mix in the chocolate chips until incorporated throughout.

I buttered my cookie sheets but you probably don't have to. Scoop out your cookies, I used a big soup spoon, pretty healthy drops.

Bake 8-10 minutes... this is the second trick: take them out just before they look done. They should be just brown on the outsides and still be pretty soft and battery in the middle. Spatula them off onto a cooling rack right away, and then eat them as soon as they won't burn you. :)

(I'm making a double batch of this today; the butter is softening and I have to run down the hill to buy chips)