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crows[I couldn't sleep until I wrote this. A few hours, and two thousand words later... I have the zero-draft of an interesting story, as whole as I'm going to tell it. I haven't been able to do this in a long time.]
“You were seduced by the open air long before I could get to you.”
Those were bitter words, once spoken to me by an ex-girlfriend displeased with my dreamer’s nature and better interest in the outdoors than her want for impractical shoes and expensive, short skirts. I suppose, to an extent, it was true… I had explored that land of my birth as intimately as any man could a lady’s physique. I knew her soft hollows, her curving tracks, her secret slips of shadow leading off into the blind oblivion.
It was good, and in my youth I thought I knew that nothing could spoil it. Those acres were inalienable to me. I was secure; I was arrogant in that knowledge. That girl – I don’t even recall her name – had spoken to hurt me and I’d brushed her off with a likely half-dazed glance into the distance, a totally unfelt apology, and maybe some vague words about how I hoped we could still be friends. I didn’t, you know, but that’s how all young men are.
For a long time she was my only companion, but as I began to grow a little older, that animal want for companionship drew me out of the hazy shell, leading me into a handful of miserable, stunted dating experiences and ultimately causing me to yearn solely for a woman who could share my only passion. If only I could have known then that finding that woman would take that passion away from me entirely.
I met Magdi at a party – some black-tie high-society to-do that a colleague of mine had encouraged me to go to in hopes that he and I both would land a better job. She was the trophy of the CEO of the company my friend had wanted to edge us into; a middle-aged salamander of a man, not totally without physical allure but certainly with no intellectual charms he could call his own. So, he wore one on his arm, like one would wear an expensive ruby cufflink… though She shone more brightly than any gem the earth will ever produce.
He’d announced her as his own, tactlessly, in some speech that I hadn’t been paying attention too because my collar itched and the room was swiftly heating, full as it was with people largely out of their element undulating around small tables like fish strung out of the water. Some part of me had remembered her connection, her name, her face, even though I’ve never taken interest in perusing what I cannot have or couldn’t keep if I did have it.
Later in the evening, I had gotten so painfully bored of the party that I took the liberty of some small explorations of the building. It was a house – presumably afore mentioned CEO’s – classically styled, beautifully decorate, picturesque to the point of cliché. Dazed from the surrounding press of voices, the bright lights, and a glass of tepid wine served earlier in the evening, I didn’t hear any of their sound as I padded down the stairs. My subconscious halted me before I got far enough to really embarrass myself, but I looked down over the burnished rail into Magdi’s face. At first, I didn’t process what my eyes took in – She was too distracting with her head lolled lazily over the low back of a couch below, her arms spread over the cushions, lazy smile pinned to my psyche. I soon assembled image with meaning, realizing that a man’s figure was below her, mostly on the floor, with her skirt shoved up above her knees and his head covered. I felt my mouth open wordlessly, at once apologetic and furiously blushing as I began to back away, every joint in my body feeling like cement.
She shook her head at me, pursing her lips slightly and smiling the black fairy’s smile. ‘It’s alright’ she seemed to whisper, but I made a swift exeunt nonetheless. I couldn’t look at the man she pretended to belong to for the rest of the night, burned by the memory of his toad’s voice mumbling between her thighs, but I could hardly take my eyes from Magdi herself. It was the awareness that she hadn’t cared – the utter tedium of her faux passion – and the now totally superficial dance that she mimicked now. It was so macabre, and I didn’t know how to let it go.
After saying my goodbyes to the co-worker that had brought me into this strange other world, I thought I was alone to walk home and clear my thoughts, glad for the outdoor air and night’s quiet. Suddenly, I felt a small hand slide into mine, tugging me around to face opposite where I had been. Magdi stood behind me – a petite, delicate vixen in crimson lipstick, with unruffled dark curls falling around her siren’s face. I stuttered, trying at once to introduce myself, to compliment her, to ask her if she needed something. She laughed, more experienced at this sort of fencing than I was, and pulled me off the street I’d begun to cross.
“I saw you watching me tonight,” She said after she kissed me.
We didn’t really talk much that night. Magdi asked to walk me home, and I let her, though I had the suspicion it ought to have gone the other way around. She said she wanted to see me again, and I told her she could come any time, and she disappeared into the night.
The minx had been serious… appearing at my door with coffee that Saturday morning, and spending a long day with me talking the world around us into perfect, organized circles. When evening fell, she coaxed me into my bedroom and spread the universe effortlessly onto the panes of darkness. Her tiny frame pinned mine – I was helpless against her – and she devoured me. It stung that she wouldn’t let me take her home, but she promised – oh, those wine-sweet lips curved into the sickle’s smile – that I would see her again soon. I, for my part, was so fascinated I hardly knew what to do with myself when she wasn’t in my sight. Within a week or two I was displaying all the classic signs of obsession… hardly sleeping, eating like a robot, with even less mind on my work than I had before.
Despite my infatuation, I was always looking at her face for sign of that expression she’d held during the passionate ministrations of her other lover. Never once did I see it, and soon believed that she loved me as truly as she whispered. Our mornings together lengthened, until sometimes she wouldn’t go home for a few days at a time… lingering in my flat and straightening my things, attending my sadly neglected pots of herbs lining my kitchen windows. It was always my greatest hope through the day to return home and discover the delicious, irresistible package of her waiting in my living room.
I did so, more and more often, frequently dropping my briefcase in the kitchen to dash to her and take her lips to mine. I would make love to her on my narrow couch, and we’d stumble naked and laughing to the bedroom later before falling, exhausted, into one another’s arms. This progressed for a few months, and I became comfortable enough with her to reveal my second love in life…
Imagine the brightness of my heart to hear that she wanted to see this verdant scape, on which was painted every dream I’d ever had as a boy, and most that I’d indulged as a man. I obliged without hesitation. She walked with me all through that summer, crossing beneath the arches of sunlight, dancing through webs of morning dew and reminding me about each blade of silver grass, each ominous swath of shadow.
It was impossible not to belong to her completely.
Autumn began to touch the world – the whole world that I had ever known – and the air became brittle with the promise of an early frost. On one of her infrequent sojourns to home – which I remained forbidden from, in all our hours together – she didn’t return for a few days. To miss a night or so with Magdi, though agonizing for me, was not unheard of. But after the third, the dull spot in my heart was growing. I took the day off work for my soul’s ailment, and followed my instinct into the woods, barely paying attention to my steps. I did know the trail that well. It had been one of my favorites as a boy, and as a result it was where I usually took Magdi.
The forest split into a sudden openness of the air, trees giving way to sky above my head as my feet broke from heavy moss into the grass of a clearing. I looked up at a barely-perceived sound, to see my orchid standing toward the opposite edge of the tree-hemmed enclosure, long black coat fluttering about her calves, eyes on me and bright with mischief. My heart leapt at the sight of her, steps quickening as I called her name. Smiling her Elysian smile, she opened her arms to me, beckoning me closer. Just before I reached her, she laughed and bolted, teasing me. I ran after her, begging her to come back to me, I needed her so much.
“No, no no…” she would laugh, breathlessly, turning halfway over her shoulder to look at my tiring pursuit. And I did tire, realizing after we’d run almost a mile through ever-thickening forest that something was not right. Magdi was still laughing, but her eyes were not the same as I had known. They did not meet mine when she turned her head back toward me. She ran recklessly, the wandering branches snagging at her hair and clothing; I was surprised she didn’t fall and harm herself with the way of it, but she never once did. She kept laughing.
“No, no, no, no no…” You can’t have me. I stumbled to a stop, watching her disappear into the gathering dark. It took me a long time, standing there as the air chilled and the sun finished setting, to realize she wasn’t coming back. I still waited till dawn to trudge homeward, numb and trembling.
Having never had an address or phone number to seek her out aside from my own, I felt rather awkward inquiring about a missing persons report. A few days later, the news paper dispelled the dilemma for me entirely. The report had already come, headlines announcing that a powerful public figure’s (in fact) fiancée had disappeared days prior. No mention to the possibility of an affair. Weepy quotes from the amphibious CEO about how much he missed her. I sneered, pushing the paper deep into my garbage can. He could never know of how a woman like that warranted love. Never know of the depth and reality of my affections for her.
I don’t know if it was the sheer ugliness of that emotion, or the backlash that she had just run away into the forest never to return, but I spent two days home, vomiting everything that I ate.
By that time – I was loathe to read the papers, but I did – they had begun to find fragments of her clothing in the forest west of town. Theories of foul play spiraled, the media ablaze and fuelled by the smell of money concerning the people involved. The two people – Magdi and her apparently betrothed. The police didn’t have any suspects. They never would.
By the end of the week, the frost had fallen, and the cold was sapping the energy of the media campaign quickly. Within another two days, or maybe three, the light was blown out all together. Magdi’s – my Magdi’s – stiff, nude body was found several miles north of the trailhead. The underbrush around her was stirred as if by much motion, her pale arms and slender legs nicked all over to corroborate it. The autopsy report found no evidence of assault, of any other outside human forces acting on her. She had died alone, unmolested, having torn all her clothing off herself and dove to the ground of her own volition. Her angel’s visage had frozen in a look of total ecstasy.
“You were seduced by the open air long before I could get to you.”
Those were bitter words, once spoken to me by an ex-girlfriend displeased with my dreamer’s nature and better interest in the outdoors than her want for impractical shoes and expensive, short skirts. I suppose, to an extent, it was true… I had explored that land of my birth as intimately as any man could a lady’s physique. I knew her soft hollows, her curving tracks, her secret slips of shadow leading off into the blind oblivion.
It was good, and in my youth I thought I knew that nothing could spoil it. Those acres were inalienable to me. I was secure; I was arrogant in that knowledge. That girl – I don’t even recall her name – had spoken to hurt me and I’d brushed her off with a likely half-dazed glance into the distance, a totally unfelt apology, and maybe some vague words about how I hoped we could still be friends. I didn’t, you know, but that’s how all young men are.
For a long time she was my only companion, but as I began to grow a little older, that animal want for companionship drew me out of the hazy shell, leading me into a handful of miserable, stunted dating experiences and ultimately causing me to yearn solely for a woman who could share my only passion. If only I could have known then that finding that woman would take that passion away from me entirely.
I met Magdi at a party – some black-tie high-society to-do that a colleague of mine had encouraged me to go to in hopes that he and I both would land a better job. She was the trophy of the CEO of the company my friend had wanted to edge us into; a middle-aged salamander of a man, not totally without physical allure but certainly with no intellectual charms he could call his own. So, he wore one on his arm, like one would wear an expensive ruby cufflink… though She shone more brightly than any gem the earth will ever produce.
He’d announced her as his own, tactlessly, in some speech that I hadn’t been paying attention too because my collar itched and the room was swiftly heating, full as it was with people largely out of their element undulating around small tables like fish strung out of the water. Some part of me had remembered her connection, her name, her face, even though I’ve never taken interest in perusing what I cannot have or couldn’t keep if I did have it.
Later in the evening, I had gotten so painfully bored of the party that I took the liberty of some small explorations of the building. It was a house – presumably afore mentioned CEO’s – classically styled, beautifully decorate, picturesque to the point of cliché. Dazed from the surrounding press of voices, the bright lights, and a glass of tepid wine served earlier in the evening, I didn’t hear any of their sound as I padded down the stairs. My subconscious halted me before I got far enough to really embarrass myself, but I looked down over the burnished rail into Magdi’s face. At first, I didn’t process what my eyes took in – She was too distracting with her head lolled lazily over the low back of a couch below, her arms spread over the cushions, lazy smile pinned to my psyche. I soon assembled image with meaning, realizing that a man’s figure was below her, mostly on the floor, with her skirt shoved up above her knees and his head covered. I felt my mouth open wordlessly, at once apologetic and furiously blushing as I began to back away, every joint in my body feeling like cement.
She shook her head at me, pursing her lips slightly and smiling the black fairy’s smile. ‘It’s alright’ she seemed to whisper, but I made a swift exeunt nonetheless. I couldn’t look at the man she pretended to belong to for the rest of the night, burned by the memory of his toad’s voice mumbling between her thighs, but I could hardly take my eyes from Magdi herself. It was the awareness that she hadn’t cared – the utter tedium of her faux passion – and the now totally superficial dance that she mimicked now. It was so macabre, and I didn’t know how to let it go.
After saying my goodbyes to the co-worker that had brought me into this strange other world, I thought I was alone to walk home and clear my thoughts, glad for the outdoor air and night’s quiet. Suddenly, I felt a small hand slide into mine, tugging me around to face opposite where I had been. Magdi stood behind me – a petite, delicate vixen in crimson lipstick, with unruffled dark curls falling around her siren’s face. I stuttered, trying at once to introduce myself, to compliment her, to ask her if she needed something. She laughed, more experienced at this sort of fencing than I was, and pulled me off the street I’d begun to cross.
“I saw you watching me tonight,” She said after she kissed me.
We didn’t really talk much that night. Magdi asked to walk me home, and I let her, though I had the suspicion it ought to have gone the other way around. She said she wanted to see me again, and I told her she could come any time, and she disappeared into the night.
The minx had been serious… appearing at my door with coffee that Saturday morning, and spending a long day with me talking the world around us into perfect, organized circles. When evening fell, she coaxed me into my bedroom and spread the universe effortlessly onto the panes of darkness. Her tiny frame pinned mine – I was helpless against her – and she devoured me. It stung that she wouldn’t let me take her home, but she promised – oh, those wine-sweet lips curved into the sickle’s smile – that I would see her again soon. I, for my part, was so fascinated I hardly knew what to do with myself when she wasn’t in my sight. Within a week or two I was displaying all the classic signs of obsession… hardly sleeping, eating like a robot, with even less mind on my work than I had before.
Despite my infatuation, I was always looking at her face for sign of that expression she’d held during the passionate ministrations of her other lover. Never once did I see it, and soon believed that she loved me as truly as she whispered. Our mornings together lengthened, until sometimes she wouldn’t go home for a few days at a time… lingering in my flat and straightening my things, attending my sadly neglected pots of herbs lining my kitchen windows. It was always my greatest hope through the day to return home and discover the delicious, irresistible package of her waiting in my living room.
I did so, more and more often, frequently dropping my briefcase in the kitchen to dash to her and take her lips to mine. I would make love to her on my narrow couch, and we’d stumble naked and laughing to the bedroom later before falling, exhausted, into one another’s arms. This progressed for a few months, and I became comfortable enough with her to reveal my second love in life…
Imagine the brightness of my heart to hear that she wanted to see this verdant scape, on which was painted every dream I’d ever had as a boy, and most that I’d indulged as a man. I obliged without hesitation. She walked with me all through that summer, crossing beneath the arches of sunlight, dancing through webs of morning dew and reminding me about each blade of silver grass, each ominous swath of shadow.
It was impossible not to belong to her completely.
Autumn began to touch the world – the whole world that I had ever known – and the air became brittle with the promise of an early frost. On one of her infrequent sojourns to home – which I remained forbidden from, in all our hours together – she didn’t return for a few days. To miss a night or so with Magdi, though agonizing for me, was not unheard of. But after the third, the dull spot in my heart was growing. I took the day off work for my soul’s ailment, and followed my instinct into the woods, barely paying attention to my steps. I did know the trail that well. It had been one of my favorites as a boy, and as a result it was where I usually took Magdi.
The forest split into a sudden openness of the air, trees giving way to sky above my head as my feet broke from heavy moss into the grass of a clearing. I looked up at a barely-perceived sound, to see my orchid standing toward the opposite edge of the tree-hemmed enclosure, long black coat fluttering about her calves, eyes on me and bright with mischief. My heart leapt at the sight of her, steps quickening as I called her name. Smiling her Elysian smile, she opened her arms to me, beckoning me closer. Just before I reached her, she laughed and bolted, teasing me. I ran after her, begging her to come back to me, I needed her so much.
“No, no no…” she would laugh, breathlessly, turning halfway over her shoulder to look at my tiring pursuit. And I did tire, realizing after we’d run almost a mile through ever-thickening forest that something was not right. Magdi was still laughing, but her eyes were not the same as I had known. They did not meet mine when she turned her head back toward me. She ran recklessly, the wandering branches snagging at her hair and clothing; I was surprised she didn’t fall and harm herself with the way of it, but she never once did. She kept laughing.
“No, no, no, no no…” You can’t have me. I stumbled to a stop, watching her disappear into the gathering dark. It took me a long time, standing there as the air chilled and the sun finished setting, to realize she wasn’t coming back. I still waited till dawn to trudge homeward, numb and trembling.
Having never had an address or phone number to seek her out aside from my own, I felt rather awkward inquiring about a missing persons report. A few days later, the news paper dispelled the dilemma for me entirely. The report had already come, headlines announcing that a powerful public figure’s (in fact) fiancée had disappeared days prior. No mention to the possibility of an affair. Weepy quotes from the amphibious CEO about how much he missed her. I sneered, pushing the paper deep into my garbage can. He could never know of how a woman like that warranted love. Never know of the depth and reality of my affections for her.
I don’t know if it was the sheer ugliness of that emotion, or the backlash that she had just run away into the forest never to return, but I spent two days home, vomiting everything that I ate.
By that time – I was loathe to read the papers, but I did – they had begun to find fragments of her clothing in the forest west of town. Theories of foul play spiraled, the media ablaze and fuelled by the smell of money concerning the people involved. The two people – Magdi and her apparently betrothed. The police didn’t have any suspects. They never would.
By the end of the week, the frost had fallen, and the cold was sapping the energy of the media campaign quickly. Within another two days, or maybe three, the light was blown out all together. Magdi’s – my Magdi’s – stiff, nude body was found several miles north of the trailhead. The underbrush around her was stirred as if by much motion, her pale arms and slender legs nicked all over to corroborate it. The autopsy report found no evidence of assault, of any other outside human forces acting on her. She had died alone, unmolested, having torn all her clothing off herself and dove to the ground of her own volition. Her angel’s visage had frozen in a look of total ecstasy.
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