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[crows]

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how random. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal, and you have to answer the questions that are asked of you.

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[chaotique.livejournal.com]

1: My greatest fears. That's a good one, considering my interesting and overdependant relationship with fear (Read: I fear a lot. Almost everything). I fear losing people I care about... that's an obvious one. The people I love are the most important thing in my life, and any harm coming to them is a thought I can hardly bear. I fear losing myself. I have had a lot of very beautiful, intense, personal, frequently 'occult' spiritual experiences. My beliefs, and my spiritual evolution over the last few years has been unconventional, to say the least, and I have a great terror that all of those things will slip away from me as I age and come closer and closer to the mundane, material world that is embraced so unquestioningly by most people. I also have a profound, foundationless phobia of firearms. I can't really explain that one any further than that, but I'm getting over it in increments, as that I'm hopefully going to be working as an armed security guard after may of '06.

2: Had you asked me this a year ago I would have told you that my greatest hope was to leave this world for another. This is no longer so. My greatest hopes now are to continually gain a greater understanding of God, my walk with the divine, and how that all plays into afore mentioned unconventional spiritual evolution. I also have immense hope for my present relationship, and its very bright future.

3: What I consider magic, I believe to be the effect of energies we cannot otherwise see, experience, or document on the material world as we percieve it. When these energies interact with what we concieve of 'mundane reality', it manifests itself in ways that we do not understand with our language, mathematics, science, and otherwise 'good sense'. It takes many shapes, and is described in a huge array of ways that vary with personal experience, both inside and outside of the occult.

4: I have no idea, honestly.