Hnnng.

[crows]

The recordings from The Quire's winter concert finally went online at some point in recent history, and I've downloaded them tonight. It was a nice concert, we did a lot of good music and I really enjoyed it. I also, like Cabaret, sang a solo, and got really worked up about it beforehand, and et cetera.

I'm not tremendously impressed, hearing the recording. It's not terrible, I've had worse, but I sound nervous. My voice should be clearer and steadier than this - shit, my voice is clearer and steadier than this. I really miss being in voice lessons. I need to start practicing more. I need to start recording my practice sessions and listening to them, and working on the many and varied flaws in my technique. I need to read more and do some more theory and...

Don't mind me, just some existential angst specifically in my musician-self. I'm sure it was better live, where people could not only hear but see me being frozen and awkward on the stage! :D

Comments

[peacock_queen]

Even when I was at the height of my training, I was so awkward and anxious about hearing myself on tape. It always freaked me out. There's a charisma to live performance that often doesn't translate into recording, but recordings have become the default of musicianship these days. It puts a damper on the career of people who are magnetic live and dull on tape.

So I think I'm commiserating? Yes. Quire sounds like such fun, I almost wish I had something like that here, save for the part where we'll be in Iowa in 3/4 months or so.

[crows]

Yeah but... uh... I have no performance charisma >.>... this is also an issue. XD

Quire is amazing, however. I am enjoying it so much, and it is helping. You should totally join this fall. It's not a real intensive program; once weekly 2.5ish hour rehearsal, one concert per semester, and an optional fundraiser that happens in spring.

We're going to GALA this summer which is going to be fucking exhilarating... I'm super excited. I still remember fondly the choral festival I went to with the children's choir, and god damn. Choirs full of THE UNSUPERVISED GAAAAAY sounds way more fun than a bunch of children's choirs :P

[peacock_queen]

That sounds like so much fun, omg. Maybe I will audition. Is there a need for sopranos, or are all y'all overun in the upper register?