Hnnng.

[crows]

The recordings from The Quire's winter concert finally went online at some point in recent history, and I've downloaded them tonight. It was a nice concert, we did a lot of good music and I really enjoyed it. I also, like Cabaret, sang a solo, and got really worked up about it beforehand, and et cetera.

I'm not tremendously impressed, hearing the recording. It's not terrible, I've had worse, but I sound nervous. My voice should be clearer and steadier than this - shit, my voice is clearer and steadier than this. I really miss being in voice lessons. I need to start practicing more. I need to start recording my practice sessions and listening to them, and working on the many and varied flaws in my technique. I need to read more and do some more theory and...

Don't mind me, just some existential angst specifically in my musician-self. I'm sure it was better live, where people could not only hear but see me being frozen and awkward on the stage! :D

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[peacock_queen]

Even when I was at the height of my training, I was so awkward and anxious about hearing myself on tape. It always freaked me out. There's a charisma to live performance that often doesn't translate into recording, but recordings have become the default of musicianship these days. It puts a damper on the career of people who are magnetic live and dull on tape.

So I think I'm commiserating? Yes. Quire sounds like such fun, I almost wish I had something like that here, save for the part where we'll be in Iowa in 3/4 months or so.