Makes me feel alive.

[crows]

So, all of today has been one twining rope of unbelievable pain toward the back of my mouth (right side, dread complications of a wisdom tooth I probably need out (immediately), says my shabby self-diagnosis). Well, it wasn't unbelievable when it started... and it doesn't really feel like teeth. It's all in the tissue back there... some kind of infection? Is this going to poison me over night before I can call the dentist I've never met in the morning? Though the occasions where I have to see this in myself are rare (it's all part of the story, see), I am once again reduced to petulance and near-tears... yea, it hurts really bad, but I think it's mostly about the promise of having to go to a doctor. What's more, I know it's not a simple course of antibiotics on the horizon that I will probably only take half of. They're going to want to put me under anesthesia and dump drugs on me after. I know, I know, I have the option to undergo whatever procedure without but frankly that sounds even worse. I may be terrified of 'going under', (mortally so!) but I'd much rather NOT have to experience whatever it is they're going to have to do to me. I think that's my base fear of the anesthesia: that it will fail.

And I'm going to miss a significant fucking sales weekend because of it. They'd better take my god damn insurance.

Comments

[papasong.livejournal.com]

i've been under a few times. it hasn't failed, but it has on occasion taken it's sweet damn time.

[joeyclaren.livejournal.com]

For what it's worth, I have been through the wisdom teef thing.

I was once staunchly anti-drugs to the point of not having anaesthetic other than the local anaesthetics they use at the beginning of the procedure. Oh god no. I also metabolize painkillers twice as fast as anyone else my dentists have dealt with.

Luckily, the main drugs they give you are not painkillers - they're dissociatives. So instead of not FEELING the pain, you just don't care, because you're floating six feet outside of your body.

Vicodin AND nitrous oxide. Just make sure there's someone to get you home, and that means every step of the way, from the dentist's chair to the wheel chair to the car seat to the house to the door etc. Because you'll be pretty much useless for 24 hours, and pretty unhappy for at least two days.

Good luck, hon.

[incommune.livejournal.com]

They won't even start the procedure without my official responsible adult sitting patiently in the waiting room. I'll be on... I can't remember the name of the anasthetic they said they'd give me. It's not nitrous though, it's actually a knocker outer. :x I think I might remember you having talked to me back in the day about having your teefs yanked. But yea, I'll have it done monday... which means I get to sell all weekend, and I'll have the latter half of monday to recover, and Tuesday I'm normally off anyway. Hopefully by Halloween night I'll be back in business; and I should be able to work wednesday without too much trouble, we're not busy in the middle of the week.

*crosses fingers*

[joeyclaren.livejournal.com]

*crosses fingers*

Why are you so afraid of going under? I am a curious monkey.

My excuse was always that I prefer to be in control of my own senses, but I have since found that being in truly extreme pain is as debilitating as being drugged (if not more so) and that, given those as exclusive options, I would much prefer the latter.

[incommune.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure really. Lack of anything remotely like the experience? I've never done any 'recreational' drugs, been intoxicated, or even hallucinatory sick since I was extremely young. Perhaps it's that I've had some bad other types of experiences that have made me value my deathgrip on reality enough that, I feel threatened by the psychic vulnerability?

[foxomatic.livejournal.com]

My mom is a nurse anethetist, and I helped her study when she was in grad school, so I've seen firsthand the kinds of things they have to know. They're trained very rigourously. You'd be in capable hands.

[incommune.livejournal.com]

Thanks guys. Makes me feel like I've got a little more well-being with people out there to say I'll be ok XD.